Forgiveness I cannot find correct title

for the circuity of sentence which I will write
my me [is] fulfilled by voices do not vibrate like yesterday ....
that vibration longer progressively sayup... slow
that vibration weaken and desist
like childish children pulse
do not be heard [by] them by wind friction
If democracy [is] beautiful title to a[n nation
hence my nation will use [him/it] also
they give last drop of blood voluntarily or with message
they both of the same bloody and even lose by land;ground thirst
freedom food gist;saris stream have never
spread over to entire/all body
desisting them among paper sheet incuse
Forgiveness if my life [is] democracy
likely he do not have title again
sometime I feel very valuable and wish life
like [soul/ head] of Chairil Anwar
but sometime I find ketidakbernilaian
pushing me to terminate life
object the of of affection my have died
with articles title about democracy which progressively turn tail
top to back.